dissapointed

why?!! does he really have to treat me this way? i feel so annoyed and disappointed with his attitude. he can't lie to me cause i can know but he really have to grow up!!!. stop treating me like his ex girls or i'll start to make myself single again. but i don't want to loose him cause he seems to be the only guy that ever woke me up from my dream.... he opened my eyes and i started to think right whenever i'm with him or thinking about him. he even saved me from a suicide so i must say that he is my superman. but i am still disappointed with his attitude!!!!

Shit!!

I broke up with my bf 3 weeks ago and i found  another guy a week later. Actually i met this guy on Wechat and we had a bet i said to this guy if u could beat my score in the game of pencil pilot wars i'll be ur gf. And he took the bet. We were only joking around until he really beat my scores. I was kinda surprise bcoz i never thought of meeting a gamer. He said that he won. So technically i was his gf from that moment. I was surprised that he actually treat me like his real gf and i started to fall hard 4 him. We talked on the phone for hours. I never talked that long in my life. Though he was not the first guy i had ever dated but he was sure the last. We love each other so much. I even risk my freedom 4 him. I made a promise to myself not to be the bad old me again and be truthful and loyal to him. I really did it. He changed me a lot. I'm even impressed at myself. Thx so much biy for giving me life, happiness, hope, and most of all love. I started to trust that he would be my 'fast forward'. Though we fight a lot i still love him. Right at this moment i really wish he was next to me. But his not here, and i don't think he even want to be here. Yesterday he was crapping around about death and stuff that i hate hearing. I don't care if he has a heart prob or any sickness. I still want him to be with me. What he said to me yesterday as if he gave up on me. As if i was never there 4 him when he need me. I tried my best to be the best 4 him. But i guess i failed. If he said that he'll be gone so am i. If anything happened it means something.

To my cous and his gf i'm sorry i got into u guys. I really didn't mean it. Pls 4give me. I love you guys. And i love my family to. Bye2 guys :')