Little girl

i want to be called as someone's little girl. it's hard to throw that felling away. i still have feelings for him. guess all i can do is lie that i hate him. now and forever. i really wish i can turn back time and fix things back. i know what i'm doing now is making things worst. but to be fair i can't let  myself suffer alone. he was that guy i thought i can be together with and forget my past. but i guess i was wrong. he was not much different that others. i made a wrong choice and got stuck with it. what made me to have feelings for him bcoz i saw his other side. i saw his weak side and i want so much to protect him and tell him to stop being so insecure about things around him. i want to tell him that he can make change towards himself and there is still hope. i know how much insecure he is about himself towards others. what he has and dont, those stuff aren't necessary for him to think. scared you'll get off track and not wanted by others. he does not have to worry bout that bcoz i want to tell him so bad that everybody is there for him. I am there for him. it's true what he did to me was unforgiven, but it's not wrong for me to forgive, and i am still trying to forgive him.

what have i done?

i was blinded by love i was drunk by lust
i made a mistake and i can't turn back time
i don't know what to do
all i have in mind is suicidal act
if i have not fallen for you
i wouldnt be in this dramatical act

i have to act and put on a straight face
each time i feel the pain
i know i dont have hope
i know there's no way out.
but you know if i can't settle this out
you'll be the one they're gonna seek out