Hello people who reads my blog diary, i just want to write something absurd today. It's cliche but it's about my bf! LOL. You could actually guess from the title anyways... BUT! I'm gonna tell something way different than what i use to say before. I'm getting engaged!!! Like officially engaged with a real ceremony and ring and dress and stuff liddat!! OMG pray for me guys.. They say in the duration of your engagement you're gonna be test OUTRAGEOUSLY. I pray to Allah to make our relationship work. I want to get married to this asshole so bad.
Yes we had our ups and downs. We tumble down badly and it is just INSANE! our 5 years of relationship was literally a ship sailing in the Bermuda ocean. It was just *speechless*. Even i don't know how to describe it. he had scandals behind my back, hit me, scolded me, treated me like shit. That was him. Even i was being a bad gf during our relationship, i cheated, i lied, went out with other guys, had feelings for other guys, purposely post pics of me and a guy on Instagram being cute together. Some of my friends even think that i have another bf. All those bad stuff happens and apparently we both forgave and forget. Well the forget part is still trying to work out.
Anyways, if you're in a relationship and you are not being tested out idk what you guys do in your relationship. Like there's always jealousy, curiosity, ignorance, and others. Just a simple reminder, always have a purpose on what you are doing. If you don't feel like there is a purpose in the relationship, you don't feel like making him or her your spouse one day then forget it. Don't proceed the relationship. I have ton of previous relays like that. They felt the same way and we moved on.
OK that's enough of the DARK SIDE of a relationship. Now move on to the sweet part of it. Every relationship is tough. It's like climbing mount Everest. Hard AF weyh! At situations like this, your partner plays a big role, always support each other in any kind of way possible. If you don't agree with his/her doing say so BUT NEVER force him/her. Your partner might think you are trying to bring them down. This is when all the sweet stuff happens. When she cries, or scared you are there to support her, when she's mad, you are there to cool her down, when she'a being crazy, you are there to be crazy with her. Your gf WILL appreciate that. If she doesn't then don't date a heartless human.
What i had with Adam is really-2 challenging. I love him. I really do. 5 years of just being his GF is totally not what i had in mind. Like i expected only a 1 month thing with this guy but turns out differently. I love how we video called each day and night asking bout each others day, how we always meet up and him accompany me to almost everywhere i go. Him fetching me up from school, KTM station, my home. Him giving me sweet text EVERY DAY and tell me that seeing me with another guy is his biggest fear. I know both of us made mistakes, but as far as i know, we never leave our problems unsolve. He never let me sleep with shits in my head. He never let me keep things in my head no matter how small it was. He always say that he doesn't want me to overthink things i should be thinking about. Yes he's not perfect but he is a HUMAN and humans make mistakes.
TBH I'm already engaged to Adam since last year according to Islam's view coz he proposed and i agreed. BUT as malays and we need to follow the culture, we need to have a ceremony to celebrate it. So yeah, i hope you guys pray for me. I pray Allah ease everything for me and I really can't wait to get married next year Insya-Allah.
xoxo- Sakura
