i have a friend named Ojan. a great friend to talk to. a great friend who i owe a lot. secretly i do have some romantic feelings towards him but Adam is my BF so i decide to let it all go. But my intention was to never let him go away even as a friend. maybe i was being unfair to Adam and him but i couldn't handle the lost of them both. i don't talk much about him cause i rather keep my feelings towards him as a secret, but here i am now talking all bout it. i'm deeply sorry for what i have made you feel maybe meeting me, knowing me, being with me was a regret to you that you'll never forget. i've scared you deeply with my words and thoughts. i've scared you badly with my attitude. i really look up to you as a great person to talk to and yes i do love you but i have to keep it contained in me cause i would never want to hurt adam. not again. i owe both of you big time and i don't know how to repay you both. i am deeply, truly sorry for all my mistakes i've done towards. i'm sorry and here's to 4 years of glorious and reckless relationship i had with you Ojan. thank you for always being there with me through thick and thin. forevermore i will always remember you as a great friend. i love you.XOXO -MFM
