If you found this, read it.

 i'm in denial, that's what it is. i'm scared at the same time. i hate bipolar. but then i just feel like sometimes it's my fault i'm at this position. I tried my best doing all the things i thought i could. Trying to save everything without knowing my limit. trying to let go things i know i couldn't but i did it anyways. I wouldn't say "in loving memories" I'd say, "in all the tormented ways you left me. I've never hurt this much in my life. thanks to you, I've felt it in a first class seat. Now all i know is pain, depressed, and hopeless. I've hurt many people because of what you left in me. I even hurt my boyfriend because of you. Are you happy now? watching and making me like this? I hope to never see you again. May death comes faster than i expect. Be it you or me, I don't care anymore. Brother my ass!

Friends

 Friends,

It's a thing if you have one,

You're popular,

It's a thing if you don't have one,

You're bitter

Being a socialist,

Thriving to be in the list,

Being an introvert,

Trying to stay quiet,

It's not I prioritize them more than I did with you,

It's not I disregard your existence,

I love them but not more than I love you,

I value them but not to keep you in the distance,

As precious they are to me,

You are the only one who gets me,

Among all the boundaries,

They've crossed and forced me to leave,

You on the other hand made it easy,

For me to reach and made it easy,

For me to reach,

To the place we'd be,

Together, Forever.