Last Suprise

i dont know what to say.. that was what i saw this morning. Blood. maybe that's the last suprise. so before its to late and just in case some of you there are still looking through my blog. just to say that i'm sorry and i forgave what ever shit you guys gave me last year. haha i never like fighting or anything like that its not nice and tbh its against my life principle but i'm a girl who u shall not challenge. just ask my cousins what i did to them when i was a kid.. (not the one that once lived in U.K) never left a fight hanging and i never loose. getting what i want is my specialty haha. bad-ass? yes i am. there was once i threw pebbles to my friend's head cause he was just so fcking selfish and annoying. therefore i want to apologize to all of you there.. i didnt know my life was this short. until last year came. there is also this boy here i cannot make him go away from me no matter what i say. i just dont want him to be lonely when i'm not here anymore. i'm sorry i made u love me and such. i'm sorry for being a pain in your ass these few weeks. well i told you why anyways right? so yeah :) dont miss me when i'm really gone :D

no hate just loves,
MURNI

TRIALS THRILLS

TRIALS!! good luck to all the PT3 candidates and SPM candidates!!! Do the best and let Allah do the rest! besides tht hv a lot of fun too okay? you'll be needing the fun in studies to you know.. This is my last year i'll be in Ipoh!! EXCITED TO LEAVE AND NEVER COME BACK weird huh? at least i dont hv to face who ever that has been in my all this while.. I dont hv to think much about family and school anymore.. just money and studies and work and my life! :D but i'm gonna miss my bae for sure.. hurm missing him already.. SPM is a kick start of a pay-to-play life now.. my 17 yrs here in Ipoh was just a free trial... again GOOD LUCK GUYS!!!!!

we're not worth fighting for.. bye

such a fool! not again.. just get off me already mister.. i had enuff and i really wish i dont have to see your face again and fall for your tricks once more.. what we had was HISTORY tht i've deleted... for the sake of humanity leave me alone MAR. just let go of me and dont hunt me down all over again... bye2

i wish

i wanna do what i use to do again.. i use to have fun without worries.. move without boundaries.. smile and never have to fake it.. wish i have more time for that.. :) be grateful you're healthy.. be grateful u have people loving you.. be grateful you dun have limits just bcoz u're sick.. love yourself.. just be grateful on what u can do.. before everything started to go away from you... i wish i'm not sick.. i wish i didnt have to lose all my memory from my childhood.. i wish everything was back to where it was... i wanna be free and not stuck to medication.. i wish people dun have to die.. i wish i can spend more time with my family and friends.. there's no Ginny to grant my wish... fairy tails arent real.. magic is fake.. happiness wont last long and thats reality....

random one hahaha

exam is like in a few days and im updating my blog hahaha crazy huh?? but it seems like this is the only way i can escape from the stress around me haha... so many things happened and i didnt update a thing sorry but its best kept private... hehe i am still with my beloved boyfriend and i am sort of forcing him to study but he is just to stubborn.... i want him to be the best of him... i know he is better than what he is now... go to hell what people have to say about us.. i love him and thats that! i know it sounds clishe but who cares... gonna study and do my best for me and him and mostly my parents... i am super sorry on what i have done to my parents im not a good child for them... i realise im disobbeying them day by day but... i cant seem to control myself im sorry... lastly before i end... for whoever thts going to face their end year exams good luck k?? ALL THE BEST!!!! GAMBATE!! ><

DAMN I'M DOOMED AGAIN

shit!!! i failed 4 subjects and i dont think i get to touch my laptop again until i pass all of my subjects... erghhh i hate parents day....huhu i guess this thing really distract me.. but i just couldn't let what i love go easily like that.. especially my guy... i know its my fault not to put enough effort in my studies but can you actually study when everyone around you treat you like you don't exist? and when you need help they ignore you? people in my house fear me a lot... i'm to scared to ask for anything and i do admit that i am coward worst than my sis and bro.... huhu feel like killing myself when i look at my scores.....

this time i think i need to arrange my time properly even if i have to limit my time with my bae... huhuhu. its the best way i can ever think of and i will try my best on my next examination....

wish me luck guys!!!
xoxo Murni Faz(anime freak)(payday2 crazy)(Adam's girl)

Hi you... hope you read this

Tbh this is the longest relay ever haha i know it seems short to others and might be meaningless in people's eyes... But i know that all the shit we've been through was not a waste as it really change who i use to be... Losing u is my fear... But somehow i have to get over it... It hurts so much to know that i'm hurting u.. It hurts to know that i am killing u from inside... This is my first time feeling loved and inlove...  U mean the world to me.. U are my everything from the beggining till the end... The promises i made will never fade no matter what comes after that.. U conquered me... U impressed me... I am sorry for not being faithful and honest with u... I dont think i need ur mercy on this but i really hope u'll read this... I just need u to understand that it happens out of my bounds.. And i cant seem to handle it myself... And fears start to take over and i did what i should have not... Now i am nobody as i've broke what is really precious to me -YOU-

I really hope this is not the last time i'll see you... Ilysm MASA