dissapointed

why?!! does he really have to treat me this way? i feel so annoyed and disappointed with his attitude. he can't lie to me cause i can know but he really have to grow up!!!. stop treating me like his ex girls or i'll start to make myself single again. but i don't want to loose him cause he seems to be the only guy that ever woke me up from my dream.... he opened my eyes and i started to think right whenever i'm with him or thinking about him. he even saved me from a suicide so i must say that he is my superman. but i am still disappointed with his attitude!!!!

Shit!!

I broke up with my bf 3 weeks ago and i found  another guy a week later. Actually i met this guy on Wechat and we had a bet i said to this guy if u could beat my score in the game of pencil pilot wars i'll be ur gf. And he took the bet. We were only joking around until he really beat my scores. I was kinda surprise bcoz i never thought of meeting a gamer. He said that he won. So technically i was his gf from that moment. I was surprised that he actually treat me like his real gf and i started to fall hard 4 him. We talked on the phone for hours. I never talked that long in my life. Though he was not the first guy i had ever dated but he was sure the last. We love each other so much. I even risk my freedom 4 him. I made a promise to myself not to be the bad old me again and be truthful and loyal to him. I really did it. He changed me a lot. I'm even impressed at myself. Thx so much biy for giving me life, happiness, hope, and most of all love. I started to trust that he would be my 'fast forward'. Though we fight a lot i still love him. Right at this moment i really wish he was next to me. But his not here, and i don't think he even want to be here. Yesterday he was crapping around about death and stuff that i hate hearing. I don't care if he has a heart prob or any sickness. I still want him to be with me. What he said to me yesterday as if he gave up on me. As if i was never there 4 him when he need me. I tried my best to be the best 4 him. But i guess i failed. If he said that he'll be gone so am i. If anything happened it means something.

To my cous and his gf i'm sorry i got into u guys. I really didn't mean it. Pls 4give me. I love you guys. And i love my family to. Bye2 guys :')

I'm dumb

Busted. Never thought off getting busted again haha never thougt my dad still hates me never expect my mom said that she'll never talk to me again. I know that i've embarassed my family and nothing can actually turn back time. But the future still can be adjust so let me learn from my mistakes plzzzzz i need the chance that u never gave me i need the trust back again. I want to prove it to u that i'm not a loser that stays a loser but if u says so.. that means i'm always a loser to you. No one is wrong in this prob so don't go and blame MIF even though he ia the one that wanted to talk to me again.. i know when u force me to vow to never have any social acc until the time comes.. u ment by the time i got married by someone u choosed that is when i'll get my 'freedom'. That is rubbish!!!!! Because i don't know that guy is truly a giod person or not and i am not gonna be a slave to someone that i don't want to!!! I really hope u saw what actually happened guys cause if u were there i will never disobey u... i dare to swear...

see ya

Hi gonna be gone for few more months . I'm gonna miss all of this cause only on the blog is where I tell everything. My feelings, My problems, my crush, and everything else. there is like nobody for me to tell my stories I really hope u guys enjoy what I've wrote on my blog and I hope I won't forget bout my blog.... This is not a goodbye but still goodbye

Livin my life

Hell yeah!!! I love myself . Can't believe i'm actually now understands the word teenager. Since this person got in my life i really understand what is the purpose of life. My life change a lot even my friends said i'm different. I use to be super playful and never concentrate on my work/school. But this person change me because of the person i'm trying to be more mature. I have a crush on him and trying to hide it but i guess it is obvious that i like him.. Trying to lie to myself that i only like him as a friend but i can't... So now i'm trying to throw this feeling away... Btw i just broke up with my boyfriend bcause i think the relationship is super boring. He lives so faraway from me and i never met him face to face. I knew him only from Facebook so it's like not worth it and i'm not sure to trust him or not. Anyways i love my life now and finally my war with my sensei finally ended now we're close again... That's all for now bye see ya'lls laterzzz....

Miss me?? Haha

Hey guys wassup?? Miss blogging. My life turns to be a super awesome adventure now... To the Malaysian or Singaporeans have you guys heard of this rapper Akeem Jahat i love him... His songs are mostly malay languange... But there are also eng songs...

AGAIN

Again and again I crash to the ground. Crashing like the MH17. Dying like the victims. Why oh why didn't you tell me from the start. You are making me feeling super bad I thought WE will exist. I want to say thanks for everything. Thanks for today's evening. I wish you good luck on your last semester I'll miss you dude




Hugs and kisses

-M&M-

RAMADHAN AL-MUBARRAK

ASSALAMUA'LAIKUM

hey guys i would like to wish you happy fasting through out the month and make sure you have enough sleep and eat cause some of you just won't sleep cause its FIFA WORLD CUP. i'm staying up-late to just to watch FIFA!!! especially my fav ARGENTINA go Messi go!!!! well i'm not much a soccer girl but i do like soccer!! and what i know is Argentina is fighting Belgium today!! watching it right now!!! i wish messi and the whole argentina team GOOD LUCK!!! ok guys gtg now...laters

FRIEND OR NOT

It's been a while since I updated my blog well actually I forgot my password haha. I miss blogging so damn much. I would like to thx all of you who reads my blog being 15 is incredibly challenging but it is fun. I had this new guy friend actually he is my first reality guy friend, I do have guy friends but they are all virtual... Lets call him 'H' he is so fantastic I like him he is actually living somewhere in my neighbourhood I- just notice that- his sis is my best friend. I thought my friend is the oldest and looks like she has a brother -how cute- H  is nice but sometimes weird. The first day I knew him he ask immediately my wechat account which I don't have. The next day I saw him he asked me to be his GIRLFRIEND and I rejected -pity guy- I guess he was pissed off and wanted to have revenge so I play-along through his games and riddles until today, the person who introduce me to H is my BFF. She overheard H conversation with another guy about me. H said that he never wanted to be my friend he only wants popularity since i'm a girl from a well-known family around there. Now he is no so fantastic anymore- though he is a 'hotstuff' in school- now I know not all guys are nice most of the are just a pain in the ASS!!!!! <3 <3

Exam!!!

argh examination is tomorrow!!!! i'm lazy to have that test well if i don't take the test i won't get good grades and if i don't get good grades i won't have presents so i still have to take the test and i bloody hate it!!!! but its ok then.... well wish me luck for it so that i can have an ipod ...... love you guys thnx for reading my blog....

a**hole teacher

my life today sucks because of a bloody teacher who always hate me. she'll never be satisfied of me and i seriously feel like killing her. i don't care if she wants to curse me with word that come out from her HUGE GAP but she does not need to give a stupid 1-day assignment that should be given for at least 3 days. this freak is bullshit that is actually bigger than bullshit i hate her till' infinity. i'll prove to this teacher that i can score without her help. my target is A+ for ALL SUBJECTS. i'm gonna make her nose bleed watching at my perfect score and i'm smack my test papers on her face to show her i don't need her. my WHOLE CLASS hates her cause she don't teach, she nag and complain  about the class and presentation that we don't know how to do!!!! GO TO HELL MS. C

2 things

OMG seriously this long i haven't post a thing sorry guys.... anyways i have stories to tell one is about boarding school and one is about false hope.

so this is how it started, i was talking about my cousins achievement to my aunt and uncle. cause she got straight a in her PMR (its a Malaysian examination for 15 year old student) and she apply for a boarding school which is not my level. then my aunt suggested a boarding school for me i was so desperately excited and search on the internet about that school and finally i found it. yey!!!!
and here is another story about the false hope. i told my dad about that school and my dad found out that school is only for the less fortunate. the one that have not enough money to go to university so that is when my beautiful rainbow turn into a dark slimy monster.my aunt and my uncle gave me false hope urgh!!!!but i forgive them. maybe they never knew about that T&C anyway

so that is all for now i gtg bye.....................
talk to you guys later